Take Control !

I'm having a good day today and I need to write down why even if I did 'worry' temporarily that I'm babbling, but if I'm the only person reading this, and this blog is to help me then why the hell should I care if 'm babbling? Even if I'm not the only person reading this I shouldn't care, I'm not doing anyone any harm !

I've realised that anxiety has competely taken control of my mind and therefore my life. The worry has basically rendered me useless, completely debilitated me, I've been unable to do the simplest of tasks. It has taken a while to get to this point, it's been a slow and painful journey.

So today I realised the only way to get better is to reverse the process. I realise it will take as long to get back to the way I was when I was healthy as it did to get to this point.

In un-doing the damage anxiety has done I've realised I've got to take back control. I've felt more and more controlled by my anxiety and anxious thoughts (and later depression) as time has gone on to the point where I didn't feel like doing anything except sleep. I've been hiding from life and cowering to my over-lord and master, anxiety.

But today I decided to start this blog. That simple act alone has flipped a switch, it has motivated me. Once I started the blog and wrote something I then decided to clean up, do some laundry, go to the opticians, book my car in for a repair. One action led to another. It is through action I believe (and many psychologists) that people get better, not sitting around thinking "why do I not feel good?".

So go do something small (I'd suggest putting on some uplifting music as a start, as a backdrop for the other small things you may do)  and start taking control back and you'll start to feel the haze lift.